Ok so i've decided, instead of just taking my time to think about what i'm going to name my journals, i'm just going to name them according to it's number. so this is my 2nd journal so the subject would be "my 2nd journal".ok that's it.

anyway,straight to my whines.

ok so Feb 19 was our juniors' prom,a thursday night.well,i had fun.but the exception is this one guy that kept bugging the fuck out of me! wherever the fuck i go,he's there! it's like whenever i wanna have fun,he's always there! it's fucking annoying! AND, he kept holding my hands! it's like he's bursting my personal fucking bubble! and i don't even like him! he annoyed the hell out of me that night. and of all the dances, he was my only partner! i fucking despise him,really. and when we were supposed to dance waltz, there was this one guy that asked me to dance with him, but i turned him down because the annoying guy asked me first. oh,how he fucking makes me boil with anger.he just won't leave me alone! and there was this one time when i got out my cellphone and my mom texted me and he READ it! i mean, he really read it! hello, privacy much?! just overall, he doesn't know when he has to stay out of me and the word "privacy".but besides all those,i had a great night.

and yesterday,Feb 21, i was texting and this "annoying" guy that i despise tricked me into thinking that he was one of my friends! when he finally told me who he really was, he said he just used my friend's cellphone.NOW i wanna kill him.and at first when i didn't know that it really was the annoying guy,i kept texting to him that he was annoying and all and that i don't like him.so he knew that i don't like him.and after all that,he texted me again and said he just wanna be friends with me and he doesn't know why.so i said we could be friends.of course if i see him again at school, i would pretend to be nice to him.but really,i hate him and i want to kill him.he's a joke,i tell you.and a piece of shit.

anyway,so yesterday, i finally got my Dookie cd that i bought off ebay! yay! and i totally love it. so now when we do the math, i already have 4 Green Day cd's/dvd's. i have the American Idiot cd, Bullet In A Bible, Nimrod and Insomniac. only a few more to go!

so that's it Alice.bye!

right. so...this is my first EVER journal. i've been wanting to do this for a long time now. only,i didn't have the time. but if i DID have a time,i was too lazy. so now i'm gonna do it! yes,that's right,i'm doing it! it's been bugging me.
honestly,i don't know what to do. a journal's like a diary,right? so i'm doing this 'cause i've been thinking about my life recently.what if i die? i just want people to know what i feel EVERY single day,what i wanna do, and stuff like that. not letting my ideas and feelings out makes me paranoid! but before this-writing journals-i wrote songs.mostly with whiny lyrics, and some aren't even finished yet. but i DO still write until now, but just some short ones. and i don't show them to ANYONE. maybe i will, but not right now.
i don't have anything more to say right now, to be honest. i'm doing pretty okay. but tomorrow's saturday, so that means no boring classes! oh yay! now THAT made me happy! oh shit...now that i've thought about what i'm doing tomorrow,i HAVE to exercise and try not to increase my weight! urrrggghh! AND try to be thinner! our juniors' prom is coming up next week, Feb 19, and i already have my dress but it's too tight! it doesn't fit me! and i can't breath at ALL! uuurrrgghhh...what the fuck am i going to do? especially because there's something wrong with my metabolism, it will be harder for me to reduce weight...fucking dress...eh,whatever! i'll try anyway.
and my supposed to be "prom date" backed out. i heard him and his girlfriend were together again.whatever, he's not my crush anyway. i'm not like all the other girls in my section that drools over him just because of...i don't know what they like about him,honestly. yes, he's really helpful and very sweet but when it comes to that thing called "love", he's a failure. he doesn't notice it when a girl likes him or not or when he's hurting someone's feelings already. that's the down part of him.
but what frustrates me,though, is that HE asked ME to the prom and i even hesitated a little when he did it. and now, he fucking BACKED OUT! he's such a jerk...so now, i don't have a date. it's all because of him. but we ARE good friends, so i try not to think about it. he IS nice after all.
oh, and tomorrow's Valetine's Day! i almost forgot about that! LOL. but i don't have a valentine. i'm completely zero. but i don't really celebrate Valetine's Days, the reason being i don't have dates or anything. but if i DID, oh that'd be awesome. but most probably my day tomorrow would just be an ordinary day. the average-playing guitar, practicing songs, watching tv, internet, reading books. the book i'm currently reading Twilight. i'm a new fan, honestly, after i saw the movie. and i got COMPLETELY hooked and bought the book off ebay. and now i'm in LOVE with the book. i love all of the characters! they're really well made, and i love them, even Edward cause i didn't like him in the movie. i just don't like robert pattinson in general. but his acting was great, though. i loved Peter Facinelli there. i fell in love the first time i saw him. LOL. so now i'm one of his newest fans. i also loved Kellan Lutz, Jackson Rathbone and Ashley Greene. they're all gorgeous. Ashley will make me a lesbian. LOL. but after all, i AM bisexual. i've never told that to anyone yet, even my closest friends at school. it juts feels like it isn't the right time to tell people that, yet. maybe someday.

oh fuck! i didn't expect that my first journal would be THIS long! maybe other people's journals are a LOT longer than this, but hell, this is my first! LOL. i think i'm going to continue writing here, maybe tomorrow i will, too. but i think that's it for now. oh, i almost forgot! i'm going to name my journal "Alice". yes, she's a girl. so...over and out, Alice!